Friday, December 18, 2009

old green notebook, left corner

Bartenders guide to customers....
bartenders who all u see is the top of their head
they are cleanin so they can get the fuck out....

(post depression/breakup)
...she might even stay for breakfast, if she gets lucky
that was the comment that lost he my heart forever
I never have to make contact again.
my unquestionaing acceptance at face value of her
my limitless compassion, my patient indulgences of her psychosis, my understanding nature
my unconditional love. my everlasting belief in the incredible transformative power of true love...
CUSHED DESTROYED ANNHIALATED BY YOU BITCH
i was on my way
on my spiritual journey
aproaching enlightenment
in a zone
the love zone
like jordan lighting up the nba finalsunstoppable in my will and belief and self confidence to do anything
was there a let downon my end or did i just get beat up?
mugged at knifepoint
assaulted by her insensitive, selfish, money -grubbing ways.
she valued my credit rating more than my affection
i guess she figured she could clear her love record faster than i could clear my financial record
she was very successful in this clearance

housecleaning for your phone number...a true labor of love

wasting away another day
my choice
my life, my rules, sleep til 11, then time to mobilize. to gather momentum to become mr economic juggernaut.
MISS STEAKS- titty bar steakhouse
HEIL HEIFER- Nazi themed steak house popular in the midwest...a cow with a hitler moustache is the logo. gooose stepping waiters come out to sing your birthday song.. TOO SOON? this is a million dollar idea...Badass leather boots
grey shirts...SSteaks...For dessert the Gestapo Gelato...a swastika grill leaves grill marks on the steaks

Rant vs. pauline kael who rails on bradd pitt in monkeys...

harrystottle

hire me
i quit my job as a bartender again, convinced that i could makeit as a writeer. i have enough put away to last a month or two. do you think i can start supporting myself full time as a professional writer in that time?

replacing ignorance with enlightenment
14,000 hrs of brainwashing in schools
the job of the school is to give us all a foundation. to give us lessons in group interaction, to identify the psychos, the odd, to learn to discriminate effectively

thoughts from the middle of a multi marketing fugue

notes from the track

No christmas stalking foryou
no way
you were naughty
you dumped me two christmases ago to save some moneybesides that would vilolate my parole
i am a simple man
with few needs and exquisite taste in women
i need an exquisite woman whose got it together of is in the process of rebuilding it and just about there. i am the kind of boyfriend who you have right before you get really serious about life. women are tired of fun when they tire of me. they get really serious. too
much laughing and joy.

HELP ME SORT MY LOVE POEMS
MAYBE EVEN STAR IN ONE
DON"T LET 1.95 A MINUTE KEEP YOU FROM IMMORTALITY
CALL FOR A SAMPLE TODAY

pulp fiction analysis
does QT hate women?
is travolta a clown because he reads?

composition book, gina M....left corner

Recent scribblings-
Modern Swamp Hippy Magazine
from the swamps of pikeville
a swamper, well a spring or two anyway
and this summer has turned it into a tropical rain forest
the habitat is changing
i think i saw a hippo and maybe a lemur
the swamp hippy sometimes leave the soggy environs to play a little rugby
swamp hippy rugby.com

Tranny sore us
tranny sore ass wrecks is my new dinosaur porn site
access it at the swamp hippy porn portal
swamp hippypoker

some dog abuse related protest idea that went unrealized

native american time traveler
the frequencies are opening up
the light transmission becomes unblocked
we are coming
we are coming

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

WHITE PERF OFFICE MAX PAD, left corner

kind dank
a tribute to the kindest and dankest
dankosity
dankness and women
ideas in dankiness
dank rules
dankness on the edge of clown

Good dank entry no. 37
blew off rugby practice last nite. big game vs blackthorn this weekend and i need to be my best. no money. working lunches at the firehouse themed steakhouse that just opened. the dining public isnt thinking "hey, i want a nice fat steak for lunch" the ones that do are grabbing a cheesesteak from one of the many roadside steak houses in this part of town

superhero of love riff
no one knows my secret identity
always with a clean get away

newsfeew "superman is being held on suspision of abuse charges as NASA briefly picked up ;ois lanes head on radar after it was ripped from her body in some manner. the head is trailing super sprem and it is thought that this either a fatal blowjob or a lost argument...
kryptonian lawyers from the forbidden zone will repersent him, destined to out circus the oj trial....
drunkman the superhero anybody can be
just add jack daniles and stumble out of a baffroom with the cape sticking out of the fly....
seperhero beer!
beermuscles beer


wow what crap....why am i holding onto ramblings written while high? seemed like a transcendaent idea at the time...mannn. duuuuddde...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

left corner/third drawer, no cover FISH DOODLES

this one seems to be from my cinema class
i spoiled myself my first semester at temple
took a course in film that wasnt on the grad requirements list

"...star discourse: publicity- a pattern if info and images creating and image larger than the star herself

dominant image is a womans face...has some sort of power over smaller guy.11th hour, bewitching hour, she has some sort of power over the small figure"

this class was taught by a leftist hippy woman who loved the secret images in film
"everything is a dick" "Everything is sex" were her favorite lines

this notebooks is an exploration of 27-28 year olde dominant male rugby alpha male dude
a real shit kicker
brutal, sexy
i had NO GAME tho
i wrote a poem for the girl next to me
i still remember parts of it ..

"youu're an ultra pleasant girl
even more than groovy
something someething lets go to a movie
it doesnt matter what type,something or genre

the cinema with you would be an honor"
GAWD
whatta dork
still feeling my way around i think
lotes of notes on persuasion from my rhetoric class and then this gem
a movie review
"First of all, let me start by saying i dont normally write movie reviews. This is more of a PSA. Save your money, save your time, daytime tv is more entertaining that the new movie "Pretty Woman." I don't know who the people in the ads were, gushing over the "chemistry" between gere and roberts. The only Chemicals they could be referring to are the ones that Gere snorted, shot or drank before the scene which turned him into a statue in this movie, expressionless, neverblinking and dull. On the other hand, roberts plays a marionet, puppetlike, expressionless and dull. "
i then go onto scene for scene theft from fab baker boys/48 hours/ and flashdance
next page
'only 70,000 journalism jobs out there and will decrease...SHOULD I BE HERE AT ALL?'

i guess i was a journalism major until this moment when i decided the more pragmatic course would be to use my junior level credits from the other college and get the hell out of school...
crap, this project is gonna be easy if all these notebooks are this lame
lots of notes about analyzing media
actually good learning was going on here, a new way to watch tv, learning to analyze subtexts and break shit way down into its parts...not alot of extraneous stuff possibly because i was involved with what the rhetoric/persuasion guy and the film profs were saying
im still saying some of it now
damn liberal left
i used to take THE TROLLEY to class
that was cool
one notebook down